I would post here more often, but it feels like I’ve stolen this Lemmy community as my posts are almost the only ones here. Anyway, I am sure you’ve missed me, so here it goes 😘

The funny thing about denial is, that I don’t think he wasn’t not horny pretty much anytime during those two years we were playing together. (Is that correct use of double negative? 😄) Even if I let him have an orgasm, regardless of how intense it feels and how relived he is afterward, it’s only short-lived. I talked about it with a few men and everyone I talked to agreed, that after a period of denial, one orgasm is not enough. I have no way of knowing myself because I am sure girls work differently, so no need to go more than 3 days without it 🤭. Anyway, that’s pretty much in line with how I see Luke behave. I can tell when he’s horny. And I can tell when he’s really horny 🤭Which I admit, have a lot to do with me, because I like him somewhere between aroused and mindless, so I try my best to keep him there.

The reason is pretty simple. Even though he’s a lot more demanding of my attention when he’s horny, he’s also a lot more devoted. And I honestly kinda like both. I love how he wants my attention. It makes me feel important. I am quite often busy with life and study, but It just made me so giddy knowing he’s waiting like a pup for when I have time to hang out for an hour in the afternoon, or even better our almost-regular sessions.

His horniness basically allowed us to even have a play at all. In the beginning, he was having a bit of an issue admitting what he wanted to explore. It’s one thing to admit you own and are aroused by the chastity to a friend. But It’s completely different to really “let go” and give her keys, and let her decide about your orgasms. Making that leap from fantasy, that you can stop at any time, jerk off, and forget about it for a while, to reality where you don’t get a say about how horny you will end up. I am sure if he wasn’t pretty horny he wouldn’t dare to tell me.🤭 Luckily his dick was in the driver’s seat. And that’s exactly where I want to keep it.

Fortunately, the nature of chastity is self-fixing this issue, as the more horny he is, the less he cares. His orgasm became less important to my satisfaction. He can go much longer than he ever thought possible, just because I want him to. But more importantly his willing to do anything for me. All I have to do is keep him horny and denied while giving him enough attention. And I happily do all of it😈 … with a touch of humiliation on top.

I still have a bunch of tenga eggs from the last batch I ordered. I know it’s one of his favorite ways to get edged. Luke explained he loves the feels of the bumps and texture it has. It stimulates his dick from all the sides at once. Which can be almost overwhelming after chastity. Well, I am happy to use the egg on him. Especially since I let him cum, so there is a little dent in his horniness waiting to be filled 🤭 Anyway, so the poor boy doesn’t get so overwhelmed I rather used a condom on his sensitive dicky. I don’t know why but I find it so hot when I belittle his penis and talk about it like it’s something cute. I know he “hates” it, but not really, because even if it makes him a little red in the face I can see him twitch. And his dick can’t lie.

I guess, when I say I’ll put a condom on his sensitive pp, so the fake pussy doesn’t hurt him it gives him a sense of where he’s standing sexually and what odds he has about trying the real one again. Besides, I love how it messes with his head when he has to use a condom for a toy! And not for a first or last time. Can’t even have the fake thing raw. But like I said. It CAN happen 😈 The hope is important 😊

Well, I think the dent in the erotic frustration has been filled successfully. I wonder how many times I would have to jerk him off to completely reset him to zero. I am not sure I want to try though, because I just like him the way he is. I consider the chastity cage to be a part of him. And I think he does too, because when I let him be unlocked for a while last time, he told me it almost felt weird and inappropriate, not feeling the weight. So. this time I wasn’t making him uncomfortable by being outside the cage and quickly locked him back 😈